100 days old

Dear baby,

Today, you are 100 days old from the day of conception! YAY!

It's quite unbelievable and the past 100 days has been ups and downs for me. For starters, I thank God that I did not suffer what many others have--morning sickness. I thank God that the hormones that are produced for you did not cause these symptoms for me. But I certainly hope there was enough hormones for your growth!

However, I did have a bit of mood swing especially at the start where I got a bit snappy. Then I got depressed (ok, not very very bad but I would cry and think negatively). Yet again, I thank God that He has seen me through and helped me through each challenge and situation I faced. Thank God for books and prayers of daddy too. Thank God for support from friends and cousin Janice and sister-in-law.

Thank God for helping me through all the consultations and visit to the gynae. Even today's blood test too! Though the after-effects was painful. Today, you are 9cm long! That's the size of my 5 fingers of my left hand combined with my index finger of my right hand! You sure are growing fast. I can see your head clearly, proportionately. Your arms and legs too. The doctor said that your leg was outstretched today. I saw your two tiny feet too as we tried to scan for your gender with 60% accuracy. I saw your feet moved, open and close, and you had even crossed your legs!

Well, so here's to another 180 days to the day I see you! I hope you are looking forward to see me too. Though this world is a fallen world where there's sin and darkness, may you find love and Jesus through us and the family. May you find Jesus and know Him; take refuge in Him and let Him be your guiding light.

Here's a verse for you that I read today.

Psalm 31:3
Since you are my rock and my fortress, for the sake of your name lead and guide me.

Things to do together

Here's a list of things to do together whenever, wherever, just you and me (and maybe with daddy):

1. Jigsaw puzzles

2. Read books

3. Read the Bible

4. Sing and dance 

5. Play the piano

6. Draw, colour, paint, art & craft stuffs

Psalms

I have decided to read Psalms out loud throughout this pregnancy! Let's see how long I'll last. Hahaha.

Anyway, I just read from Ps 1-5 and thought of writing out a few verses that strike me. Didn't know about it..

Ps 2:11

Serve the Lord with fear and rejoice with trembling.

Ps 3:3-5

But you are a shield around me, O Lord; you bestow glory on me and lift up my head. To the Lord I cry aloud, and he answers me from his holy hill. I lie down and sleep; I wake again, because the Lord sustains me.

Ps 4:1

Answer me when I call to you, O my righteous God. Give me relief from my distress; be merciful to me and hear my prayer.

Ps 4:4

In your anger do not sin; when you are on your beds, search your heart and be silent.

Ps 4:8

I will lie down and sleep in peace, for you alone, O Lord, make me dwell in safety.

Ps 5:3

In the morning, O Lord, you hear my voice; in the morning I lay my requests before you and wait in expectation.

Bruise

I had almost fell a few days ago ):

I couldn't control and swallow my supplement properly and so I started vomitting. Had to rush to the toilet and in the process, I slipped on my own vomit, and knocked both of my knees against the toilet bowl. Ouch!

I didn't know the knock was so hard and so bad that it was very bruised the next few days! Shocked. I had never had such bad bruise before! Ha! Thank God still that I did not fall on my back!

It was quite a mess and Chris helped me clean up the toilet. But he was like doing it unhappily though ): and scolded me at one time too. I guess he didn't mean it. And still, I'm thankful that he helped. It was almost everywhere and he washed almost everywhere. The toilet started to stink too. In the end, only the maid's washing the next day helped remove the stench. I think detergent must be used, that's why.

Hormones?

It's coming to the end of my 1st trimester already! Yay!

Throughout the past 3 months, I had never experienced serious morning sickness nor constipation. I read that these occur due to the changes and production hormones that are part of the pregnancy. And so, I started to wonder yesterday if me not experiencing these symptoms meant that I am not producing enough hormones for the baby? Is it dangerous then? Any cause of concerns? Oh dear...I feel like asking the doctor. And certainly hope it's not a negative effect!

On a separate note, I joined this FB group where those delivering in Aug/Sept are inside. It's a secret group where articles and questions are shared, and answers and opinions are given. It's great cos it's like a big support group where everyone is about the same pregnancy week as you! Many of them doesn't seem like first-time mothers. And many of them are older than me...seems like the are close to mid-thirties. While I like the openness and sharing of common symptoms and miscomfort we face, there are some things they say and do that sometimes worry me and not on the same page as me.

For starters, a few of them said that their doctor found fibroid in their uterus. This got me worried and wondered if I have them too. I had to ask my gynae to check at the next appointment.

Next, there were some of them who suffered miscarriages. Felt sad and makes me wonder at the risk, reality and if it would happen to me too.

Finally, many of them take the Down Syndrome test and some came back with negative results. Granted that they are older and have a higher risk, and rightfully should go for the test, but I was surprised that there are many many of them who do so! Is it really that common? And they said it as a matter-of-fact, and they don't even discuss the consequences or after-effects after knowing the test result. Well, I guess the test results just shows you the odds and ratio, it really doesn't give a definite "yes" or "no" to whether the kid has Down Syndrome. I guess, that's a good thing bah.

In any case, pros and cons of joining this group. Wonder how it'll turn out...