My quote for the journey

It is in the unknown progression that you put your faith in God.

Unlike preparing for a wedding where there's known and seen progression, this one is really unknown, unseen and in many ways, unprepared. There's progression, no doubt, but the progression is unknown.

My own human instinct will be apprehension and fear; trying to search for as much information as possible to make myself as prepared as possible..to know everything that is and would come. But there really isn't enough preparation that could be done and each experience is different from each other.

There's nothing quite like it to prepare you to 90% so all I could do is to have faith and to trust in God.

Quickening

I have been feeling quickening the past week! On week 16! It felt like muscle twitching but I want to believe that it's baby moving around inside! Haha. It feels good but when I put my hand there, it stops. Haha. Guess I'll just wait till more obvious can be felt then!

Weight gain?

Oh no! I had just realised that I haven't gained any weight for 2 weeks since my last appointment! Still at 42.0kg! Oh no! Doesn't seem like the baby gained weight. How? Looks like I must eat more or eat more healthily!

Today, I read that a mother in the FB group lost her baby due to miscarriage. The water bag burst ): So sad. It can even happen at this stage. Sigh. I pray for God's protection over me.

Last week, a colleague from the membership department committed suicide at the block opposite my office. Apparently, she came to work in the morning, was nowhere to be found thereafter, the supervisor was frantically looking for her, and the next thing they knew, they were told there was police and ambulance in the block opposite the office. The director was asked to identify the body ): Was informed that she just came back from maternity leave, baby's 5 months old, and it's suspected that it's post-natal depression that led to the suicide.

So saddddd....so post-natal depression is soooo real. Sigh. I pray that God will protect me again from such extreme depression. Was telling Wanting the other day that she must come to visit me so that I won't get depression.

Praying praying.
So many things to pray for.
This world is pretty fallen.
We live in a dark world.
Sigh.
Really need God's protection.
And I need God's eyes to help me see beyond the darkness of this world to the positivity of this world.
There must be something hopeful and positive here despite our sin.
There must be something here while we await our transition to the perfect world.
There must be something.
Please help me to see.

Announcing you to the world (through fb)

Tonight, on 2 April, 8.25pm, daddy & I announced you to our friends on FB with these announcements photos!

I think daddy's one is cute and very representative of him! 

Mummy's announcement:

In God's perfect time, He made you who you are

Daddy's announcement:

Guess I'm not alone now

Babywearing workshop

Today, Chris and I went to a free babywearing workshop/talk organised by NLB as part of a Parenting Talk Series! It was great and we had a lot of fun! 

It was good learning of the different types of carrier, the cloth kinds, with a live demo with dummy babies! The wraps and curves and areas to tighten brought me a look of confusion throughout the demo. But it was good learning and knowledge gaining anyway.

They had also shared the optimal position and angle to carry the baby that would be good for development. I'm especially grateful for the hands-on that was available and the two trainers who were there to correct us after our try-out! It sure wasn't easy doing it! And we have narrowed down to the ring sling if we were not using the buckle/soft carrier kind.

This is Chris trying it out! *he forgot to take a photo of my try-out! :(*

Another note about the dummy babies...there's a weight on it!! I felt so surprised and it's really quite heavy! And when I look down, the dummy baby was smiling at me! Freaky! Haha.

All in all, I'm thankful that NLB organized this and I'm glad Chris came along with me! It's all about learning!

I'm looking forward to the day I wear you, baby! Hope you would be comfortable and that you won't fall off! Hehe! Be patient with us too! :)