Hospitalisation leave

Yes, I was suddenly given hospitalisation leave at my most recent check-up on 25 Jul. 33 days of leave until 26 Aug. The first time ever I was given so much leave! Thankfully, my company gives up to 60 days of hospitalisation leave.

The doctor said that the baby was too low and is afraid that the baby would come out too early. So she asked me to rest more, don't walk around, don't exercise, don't swim all the way until week 36 where it is the safe period; term, as they call it. So there I am, out of work.

I was initially shocked because I had a lot of work to do. There was a lot of projects in Aug, including my own SEC projects. Plus being on leave means I'm not able to support my colleagues' events and they will have to cover me for my own.

So I gave a call to Cheryl first and we were both shocked. Then I called Selene in the late afternoon to clarify further. Thankfully, SAFRA is family/health over work, so I was told to do up a handover list, rest more, and try to work from home till my cover comes in. I suggested going down one day to teach but Selene said I can just skype/Facetime/call instead.

Oh wells. So, for the past 4 days, I have been working from home but it doesn't feel nice either. It really felt like I was still at work and replying many emails and trying to do up some documents. Thank God that it's Day 4 now and things are starting to slow down. I try to do less so that I can sleep more, and perhaps, do more of my personal stuff.

It feels so surreal. I have always wanted to take the last few months before delivery off, or for that matter, to stop working from Week 17 onwards when baby developed hearing. But when it comes, I don't seem to be able to let go. I'm still hung up on work. Maybe cos I need time to handover, maybe because it is too sudden. But I hope to embrace every part of this leave and really enjoy, read, listen to music, pray (most important one) and talk to baby! Hope to do more personal stuffs too! Hehe.

Now, my routine is eat sleep eat sleep. I feel like such a sloth. Sigh.

Meanwhile, I'm praying that the baby will move upwards and not be so low. Praying that I would be able to carry her to term. Finally, praying that baby will put on more weight.

Swollen feet

This is my water retention feet! I've never seen so much flesh around my big toe nail before! Goes to show how much it has changed!

Body changes

When I see young couples dating, it reminds me of my own dating journey. And when I see someone who is as skinny as me previously, it reminds me of myself and wish I could tell myself, "Your body's going to change a lot. Better think twice." Haha.

Yar, the body changes are a lot and sometimes too overwhelming for me to absorb. I've never been fat, never hit past 40kg, never had a BMI above 20 and all these are happening to me now! So much changes and doesn't look nice. Oh wells.

Anyway, I'm trying to embrace it and so, here's a nice beautiful photo of 28W6D! Don't say mummy didn't bring you to the top of the world to see Singapore!

Swelling

Week 28.

I'm starting to swell up and get water retention. It feels quite bad. My shoes are getting tighter. My fingers look swollen. My big toe looks bigger; there is flesh around my toenail! My face looks bigger too.

Everything is starting to change. Uh-oh. I thought I wouldn't get it.

I've changed my ring too. I had a lot of difficulty taking out the wedding band yesterday. So I decided to wear it as a necklace and whip out my... Tiffiany & Co diamond engagement ring! And it fits so well on my ring finger! Yay! Glad to wear it again! Making it more worth it! Haha.

On another note, after 5 months of small appetite, I'm glad I'm eating a lot more now. I even feel hungry or not full after a complete meal! Yay! But honestly, I don't feel like spending so much money on food; it's expensive... Especially when I eat out. Sigh. Gotta rework my budget; I guess. And consciously eat more