I don't really like this heart-pounding, nervous feeling. Pray that it'll go away soon.
Sunday, February 28, 2016
Visit to the gynae
Hmm, I don't know why but everytime I visit the gynae, I get very nervous as the waiting time increases. Maybe it's because I'm afraid of what the scan would reveal, or what the doctor will say. I'm afraid it's something I would not want to hear. Or....I'm not sure if it's because of all the previous times I had visit the doctor, it's always not been good. Especially the regular visit to HPB for my back, the first thing that I would look at when I entered the room is the x-ray scan and I would try to interpret it myself.
Friday, February 19, 2016
My secret to taking supplements
Pssss...I've just found a secret to taking supplements for myself! It lies in CHOCOLATE MILK!
Especially Magnolia's one! It's very thick and so, when I put the supplement in my mouth, together with the chocolate milk, I can't feel the supplement and I can push it down easily to my throat! Besides, who can resist chocolate milk! It's so tasty! Yummy!
There's also this amazing and swift pill cutter!
It cuts the pills so well into half! Now, I don't need to use scissors and my strength to do so. And it would always (or near always) be neatly cut into half! Yay! Makes the swallowing easier.
And of course, I have learnt to say a prayer everytime before I take the supplement. Whether it's a short one or to thank God for supplements (yes, hard as it may seem, but I still have to thank God), I pray before starting on them and ask God to help me swallow them. Learning to rely on Him in prayer even in the small things!
Especially Magnolia's one! It's very thick and so, when I put the supplement in my mouth, together with the chocolate milk, I can't feel the supplement and I can push it down easily to my throat! Besides, who can resist chocolate milk! It's so tasty! Yummy!
There's also this amazing and swift pill cutter!
And of course, I have learnt to say a prayer everytime before I take the supplement. Whether it's a short one or to thank God for supplements (yes, hard as it may seem, but I still have to thank God), I pray before starting on them and ask God to help me swallow them. Learning to rely on Him in prayer even in the small things!
Thursday, February 18, 2016
Sunday, February 14, 2016
The Prayer List
Time to get on our knees and pray!
We've finally came out with the prayer list for baby! Yay!
In no particular order yet, here it is!
We've finally came out with the prayer list for baby! Yay!
In no particular order yet, here it is!
- Salvation
- Physical growth and development
- Purity
- Grow in the Lord
- Wisdom
- Obedience
- Serving/Service
- Evangelism
- Physical health
- Career
- Future partner
- Future family
- Physical safety
- Good relationships
- Well-mannered
- Fruits of the Spirit
- Thankful attitude
- Prayerful spirit
- Prudence/financial wisdom
- Spiritual protection
- Creativity
- Compassionate
- Media influence
- Grace & truth
- Anger management issues
- Independence
- Addictions
- Greediness
- Prideful/Humility
- Worshipful
- Teachable
- Live out God's Will
Saturday, February 13, 2016
Tiny hands and tiny feet
Today, Melvin and Shuying brought their new baby girl to a CNY crusade gathering. The baby's slightly more than 1 month and it was so sweet seeing her! Her hands and feet are so tiny! So is every other feature on her face! It's pretty amazing! They don't stay tiny for long and so it's a rare moment to capture when you can see them this young!
Melvin was letting everyone carry her, even the guys who were scared and usually don't do so.
Brought me thinking: I can't wait to show to you to the world either. And show the world to you!
I pray that you'll see this:
Melvin was letting everyone carry her, even the guys who were scared and usually don't do so.
Brought me thinking: I can't wait to show to you to the world either. And show the world to you!
I pray that you'll see this:
- God's beautiful creation in both nature and mankind
- The fallen world in all its ugliness, immorality and sorrow
- But be reminded and accept the Saviour of the world as the one who liberates us all one day
- Know there is eternity in heaven, a much more beautiful place
Friday, February 12, 2016
Talking and writing
Just as how we should talk to God every day through small prayers, may I also write small journal entries :)
The FIRST Entry
How this got started
My manager was speaking to me today about whether I journal of this pregnancy journey. I did think of doing so but I realised that when I start writing (like literally hand-writing it down), I tend to write a lot. And after a while, I would feel like typing.
Since blogger is now on mobile, I figured why not return back to blogging and typing out my thoughts and journey? Whether is it from the laptop or on my phone, it would be convenient and at least I'll have an avenue for journaling my thoughts and journey.
Why journal?
Since the start of my pregnancy, I have not been feeling the most positive or elated. This pregnancy came very early; earlier than expected and I wasn't mentally or spiritually or even financially prepared for it. What's worse is that I did the test on the day when I wanted to hand in my resignation letter and leaving the job without another job. I was up to my limit at work already and when I saw the test result, it just stopped me in my tracks. And till now, I am still stuck at work with a not-so-pleasant work attitude. I feel trapped. Trapped that I'm in this job cos of the baby.
I guess that's where all the negativity comes in. I have cried 2 times thus far: once when I first threw up before dinner, and felt so lonely when eating dinner alone. I just felt a lot of suffering and I felt it unnecessary. Second was last night when, after visiting the delivery suite in Mt Alvernia, I got so frightened, fearful and unprepared that I just burst out in tears. I suspect I have mild pre-natal depression but my sister told me not to tell the gynae cos the medication prescribed may not be good for the baby. There's truth in it. Nonetheless, crying helps release a lot of emotions and loosens up the tension within me. I'm feeling better now. I think journaling will help me too.
I have also just text Geraldine about the recent happenings and am glad that she listens and gave me some advice and will also be praying for me. I'm glad I have an accountability partner and someone I can share with; someone who had been through it and though may not know in full the extent of my negativity, at least, is someone who has not and will not condemn.
My thoughts for now--Prayers
When I started to be aware of the negativity, I really wanted it out of my life and mind. I know that the only way is through prayer and reading God's Word. But I want more than just the Bible, I need some guidance and help. I started searching for "praying through pregnancy" and viola! I found a book written by Jennifer Polimino! Actually, I have browsed through that book previously and I thought it's really good. But cos I was just married (or haven't gotten married yet), I just put down the book and noted to myself to consider buying it next time when I'm planning for a child. Looks like this book might just come in handy! Hoping to buy it tomorrow and start reading although I'm 7 weeks late!
I have also started saying a short and dependent prayer before taking my supplements. The pills are really hard to swallow and it's quite big. It's a psychological barrier as well. But I want to depend on God and depend on prayer to help me get through every single pill that I have to take for the next 7 months and more. Every little prayer helps.
I also thought of coming out with a prayer list for the next 33 weeks to pray for the baby. Thought of doing it together so that we would be intentional in our prayer. For example, media protection, fruits of the Spirit, future partner, purity, physical development and health etc. I wonder if Chris would be into this with me. Else, it'll just me and me only.
Prayer requests
I pray that God will turn my eyes towards Him throughout this journey and I would receive fresh insights and a more positive spirit through this pregnancy. I certainly don't want to pass on the negativity to the baby.
I want to be more prayer-dependent.
I want to have more faith.
My manager was speaking to me today about whether I journal of this pregnancy journey. I did think of doing so but I realised that when I start writing (like literally hand-writing it down), I tend to write a lot. And after a while, I would feel like typing.
Since blogger is now on mobile, I figured why not return back to blogging and typing out my thoughts and journey? Whether is it from the laptop or on my phone, it would be convenient and at least I'll have an avenue for journaling my thoughts and journey.
Why journal?
Since the start of my pregnancy, I have not been feeling the most positive or elated. This pregnancy came very early; earlier than expected and I wasn't mentally or spiritually or even financially prepared for it. What's worse is that I did the test on the day when I wanted to hand in my resignation letter and leaving the job without another job. I was up to my limit at work already and when I saw the test result, it just stopped me in my tracks. And till now, I am still stuck at work with a not-so-pleasant work attitude. I feel trapped. Trapped that I'm in this job cos of the baby.
I guess that's where all the negativity comes in. I have cried 2 times thus far: once when I first threw up before dinner, and felt so lonely when eating dinner alone. I just felt a lot of suffering and I felt it unnecessary. Second was last night when, after visiting the delivery suite in Mt Alvernia, I got so frightened, fearful and unprepared that I just burst out in tears. I suspect I have mild pre-natal depression but my sister told me not to tell the gynae cos the medication prescribed may not be good for the baby. There's truth in it. Nonetheless, crying helps release a lot of emotions and loosens up the tension within me. I'm feeling better now. I think journaling will help me too.
I have also just text Geraldine about the recent happenings and am glad that she listens and gave me some advice and will also be praying for me. I'm glad I have an accountability partner and someone I can share with; someone who had been through it and though may not know in full the extent of my negativity, at least, is someone who has not and will not condemn.
My thoughts for now--Prayers
When I started to be aware of the negativity, I really wanted it out of my life and mind. I know that the only way is through prayer and reading God's Word. But I want more than just the Bible, I need some guidance and help. I started searching for "praying through pregnancy" and viola! I found a book written by Jennifer Polimino! Actually, I have browsed through that book previously and I thought it's really good. But cos I was just married (or haven't gotten married yet), I just put down the book and noted to myself to consider buying it next time when I'm planning for a child. Looks like this book might just come in handy! Hoping to buy it tomorrow and start reading although I'm 7 weeks late!
I have also started saying a short and dependent prayer before taking my supplements. The pills are really hard to swallow and it's quite big. It's a psychological barrier as well. But I want to depend on God and depend on prayer to help me get through every single pill that I have to take for the next 7 months and more. Every little prayer helps.
Prayer requests
I pray that God will turn my eyes towards Him throughout this journey and I would receive fresh insights and a more positive spirit through this pregnancy. I certainly don't want to pass on the negativity to the baby.
I want to be more prayer-dependent.
I want to have more faith.
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